Read on to learn one of the ways I manage my vicious thoughts and if you want to learn how to manage yours too.
One of the ways I had managed my negative thoughts is through focusing on the evidence that what I said about myself to myself is not true.
- I had said to myself the following,
- I am incompetent
- I lack energy
- I don’t have the support I need
- I can’t speak with clarity
- I hate my voice
- I am awkward
- I am not a people person
- I’ve made a lot of mistakes
- I screwed up
- I am stupid
- I don’t deserve love
Amongst many other things and challenges I faced and listening to these vicious thoughts plus the overwhelming emotions had led me to suicide attempts.
With an anxiety disorder sometimes the emotions can be overwhelming that I believed everything negative I had said about myself.
I decided to take charge and control of these thoughts and emotions and was determined to get my life back on track. I shifted my focus towards all my accomplishments, my support network and people who stood by me. I celebrated myself with what I accomplished in my life it’s noteworthy and remarkable.
I did not celebrate my accomplishments enough because I felt that I did not deserve them, I did not feel enough, I felt I kept having to do more even when I won’t travel incentives I did not enjoy it and there were several times when I gave those travel opportunity a miss.
I was in a high powered environment that we tend to celebrate for a short while before I needed to proceed with the next goal someone else set for me…
I know this made no sense to those who are driven by money and those who can manage thoughts and emotions effectively.
To me, it was a struggle and more so with a disorder.
I noticed the impact of listening to my thoughts, it robbed me from experiencing inner peace, it robbed me from cherishing the rewards I had worked so hard for and most importantly it diminished my self-worth.
I found myself a time to journal all my accomplishments in my life to establish the fact that what I had been telling myself about myself was a complete lie.
Subconsciously, believing those negative thoughts was a way to help me hide from taking ownership and responsibility for all the mishaps that took place in my life. Namely, my divorce and mental health. I was afraid to face my inner demons.
- I realise that my accomplishments throughout life indeed outweigh my failures and mistakes.
- I decided to celebrate myself that way.
- I decided to appreciate myself for those experiences.
- I decided to look at the good in me.
- I decided to serve others through lessons I learnt about myself.
- I decided to utilise the skills I’ve acquired and mastered to help me grow and support others in their growth too.
- I decided to not allow my weaknesses to stop me from celebrating me.
- I decided to not allow naysayers to creep into my thoughts.
This is the reason why I have decided to show up more often on your social media feed. I learn to not hide and let others see my wins and share my lessons for others who may need support to benefit too.
Trust your wisdom, trust your strength.
It’s gotten you this far in life.
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